You know what, damn duck

, it is. But all this needs little story cause...I'm back too!

(Anyway if I see you back here and perhaps Mojo then you 2 already save my day, if we see jegu, well, kind a tremors of apocalyptic magnitudes will erupt and the Universe shift its rules of reality.)
Sooo....you know what? I was running psychological test of living in a cave without any contact to outside world nearly 4 months. Today I finally plug the cable and experience the sweet chills of humans lowest desires - Internet
Have to say; first days were absurd. The feeling you don't get your days load of human filth and you actually purify yourself from the human stupidity, it could be compared to agony

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Anyway after the dope-offs (internet is equal to drug) the world get brighter, you feel better and have way more positive mentality. I example play some real old games I always wanted to play again but never really couldn't concentrate as always there was thought and need for: multiplayer adrenaline rush - yea yea I like that old game and start it someday but now I just want another frag-ass round where I once again sit high on frag list.
And so it goes and you never do that old thing you always wanted to do
Also I entomb myself to mountain of WarHammer books. If there is something I have always wanted from the first day I play MechWarrior on a year 87 or something and the very day I realize there is something called WarHammer, its to total understanding of those 2 Universes.
Well to be realistic and honest, I never can't, never in my life I cannot seek enough to fully understand them as they a...GALACTIC.
On a size level.
And expands like a Universe everyday so if you today reach ultimate knowledge tomorrow you know nothing.
Anyway I got my few diamonds that allow me to reach at least something that I could call...insane playing
1 - MechWarrior 4 Mercenaries got mod called MekTek and so on, of course there is Living Legends but its all multiplay what I know and Online that too goes on same level and what I heard, Online is just wasted, players piss on BattleMech' cocpit and spit windshields and they all are succumbed to most common: the lowest human standard.
The idea I see on few real good gameplay videos on Online, I never would have same teamplay instead bunch of faggot childs who deserve some bootcamp on down there, Middle-East where those black suited fellas show so much about human compassion

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So it left me alone with my MekTek mod
What a hell I care! I have some over 100 BattleMech' to customize and wide variety of weaponry even that most rarest and craziest ain't there like underwater warfare nor close combat nor gladiator arenas with axes or gauntlets or really working full warfare with tanks, infantry, aerial and so on, overall the mod is so huge and crazy that I could say its the best BattleTech' game one could have if he seeks solo playing.
Even with its bugs and unfinished things. Just like R2, it has bugs and get never finished but still better game about Aliens/Predators/Marines that anything yet done.
So last years I did nothing but create my own army with unique, characteristic look and style, way to play. Almost 400 BattleMech variation I have and all have meaning, way to use.
That I never could do on real table top where to buy and paint all models. Even the space to store them could be impossible to have

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And once again as I see my lance doing just what I have planned, motherfucking cocksucking teenager whore, it is, insane cool. - Me on my lovely Marauder commanding, my first is Warhammer with ability to sustain energy based firepower and still keep aggressive speed, support is Catapult where he need no worry about ammo running out and lastly seeker is Wolfhound, crazy fast and aggressive laser-blaster.
Everything is planned so that hole lance goes on same speed and hole lance carries nearly maximum armor and still able to duel on open firefight with most dangerous Clan-murderers, even the heavily weighted Marauder runs along with lot lighter Mechs'.
When I see my support staying far raining missiles + laser, first taking stance thus forcing enemy commander to duel which allows me to blast PPC right behind and seeker harassing enemy scouts...it all fulfills the perverted need for old-way fella like me.
And everything is written like the good books tell, computer controlled Clan 'players' are higher ranked as my lancemates, where my lance fire miss after they wonder 2-3 seconds where my hand is, the Clanner blast you instantly as the line of fire is free, thus forcing me to use my human superiority; thinking to win the match and finally defeats after defeats my team starts win, against superior skill, superior weaponry and more heavy BattleMechs' on Clan side, the game got something, something why to play.
It have working multiplay what I understand but have no idea where the hell people play it, if the play (kind a doubt that). The potential of this multiplay...well, with right persons, insane.
And then the final wonder once again why, in the name of my deceased mother who sleeps eternally, why the fuck you fucking shitsucking cockliking braindead gutless whores on MekTek team and other teams who were making that mod, stop making it.
The bullshit I read about why is so deepshit bullshit that nothing in the world is so deepshit.
If you think AJL got brain damage as R2 never get finished and BETA is like another person trying to make sequel to R2 who never wasn't part of making R2, the stupidity on stopping finishing that mod...GALACTIC
Anyway still best MechWarrior game today if you seek solo, and perhaps, multiplay with good sane minded players.
2 - WarHammer
UUUUUUUHHHHHH I have spend nearly 1500 Euros last few years on CODEX books about WarHammer.
I read them like crazy monk who cares nothing anymore than seeking out ultimate evil and write it down on his own CODEX - The Bestiary of Monsters and Horrors Beyond What Man Can Understand.
I go to sleep listening audio books about Emperor and the world of WarHammer, the very sound of slime dripping off Nurgle's cohorts and Bolter blasting the very puss of infectious slime around the corridor, all in the name of eternal and all benevolent Emperor.
The Genestealers kissing marines with tongues of acidic corrosives down on their throats, imagine how painful it would be, how horrible it would be and how much there is Genestealers on a Space Hulk which have drifted thousands of years in space, growing in mass as meteors pummel it, other drifted spacecrafts stuck to it, all making it compare to size of a moon, all filled with...Genestealers. Billions. Billions multiply billions, then you could understand.
And as Genestealer is equal to Alien in horror and ability to kill. The horror, the horror...
You have to become friend of horror like good colonel Kurtz say
Anyway there was too the insane need and will to have, a game which holds all major aspects of WarHammer on a video game. I still seek it as even that what I found, ain't it.
Mod called Ultimate Apocalypse for Dawn of War Soulstorm, Christ it has a lot, so much and lot that my mind is twisting like it would be if I dare step on a Crystalline Labyrinth of Tzeentch where every living being lose its mind for a total insanity of everything.
...I feel sometimes like that, I seek too much
Another one is WarHammer Armageddon, kind a new game suppose. It too has lot to play and I personally like its style and mechanism but it's bit empty and cold, it lacks final touch that would give it soul.
Anyway it may have the most great potential on modding section...I keep waiting it to grow old enough.
Also, someday, I will sit on real WarHammer table, playing with real figures which I painted on my own hands. But before that, I can't stop devouring the knowledge hidden on those godlike CODEX bibles.
I never get interested reading a one page of Bible, the faggot names and faggot assholes there with their faggot customs and faggot sins, faggots hole book full of!
But a motherfucking Emperor and his forces keeping evil away, I feel like I have always live a life of one, one space marine. Always vigilant always disciple and never lose heart for Emperor always knowing, someone is watching, like what he sees, proud of me, laying his hand on me to bless the pure of soul.
And that feeling, feels good
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But back to business

I guess I run server for R2 for next week or two just to check, sameway as before I send a message on my server section when its up and running and delete the message once the server is down. Non-dedicated server as before.
If I don't run server I sit on Russian Bears serv most likely (R2) or simply do something else.
And if the server is running and I'm not playing I change my name something like 'HOST-AWAY'
Let see if we get matches
